"Eggs? Why eggs? Aren't they nutrient dense balls of protein? Yes!! But, they can create inflammation in those who have auto-immune issues. What? Really? But not for me? I have to be ok with eggs. I can't let them go. No. NO. NO,"Exclaimed my inner voice.
I woke up on that beautiful, cold winter Sunday. This was the day. We were going to have light, fluffy pancakes on our week old Paleo Diet. Oh, I am not giving up pancakes. "I will not," ran the voice in my head. "I will not!" The only reason I knew we could do Paleo was this magical recipe of eggs, coconut flour, and tapioca flour that made the lightest, fluffiest pancakes I have ever enjoyed. Did I mention they were delicious? You see, we have a pancake culture in our house. It is a sign of the weekend. A treat. A coming together to start the day off with perfection.
I cracked one of the eggs. And it sent me back to my childhood. Sitting in front of a plate full of scrambled eggs. I wouldn't touch the white parts. It had to be scrambled. By the time I was 5, I had such a gag reflex that I couldn't even eat scrambled eggs. I think my parents got the message. I wasn't going to eat our own pasture-fed chickens eggs. And I didn't touch scrambled eggs again until college.
As I mixed and blended my perfect batch of pancakes, I could feel the nauseating sense I had as a child. I tried to ignore it. I LOVE PANCAKES!!! Ok, so within 1/2 hr of eating those delicious Paleo pancakes, I crashed. Fuzzy head, low energy, and an overwhelming sense of hunger. Theses are the signs that I have looked for in fine tuning my diet. I felt like I was walking around in a fog. It wasn't bad. But it was noticeable. My body was trying to tell me again what it was telling me as a child, "don't eat eggs."
I want to feel better. I want to commit myself to healing my leaky gut. I have come so far on this food journey. I have to listen to my body. And my friends, that was the hardest day for me yet. Letting go of the chicken eggs from my diet. BUT it was the last thing that I had to give up. I believe we all are hanging onto a "last item" before we really commit ourselves to healing our gut with a Paleo diet.
What are you holding onto in your diet that is preventing healing for you? We all have our things. For me, eggs are needed to bake goodies and pancakes and it was the very last thing I wanted to let go. This day was so emotional for me. I felt let down by my own body. And I also couldn't imagine what I would make for my daughter in the morning. And so the food journey continues........
